what nots

Time flies, I seriously have no time lately. I miss having lazy afternoons, going shopping and walking aimlessly around the shopping mall.

I'm bogged down and I feel like a fish out of water. Saturday nights are sacred with me thinking should I waste it or should i be in denial mode because I'm still young, the night is still young with more to offer. Going out on a saturday night till 4 am in the morning while having to wake up early sunday morn.Thats stupid and whatmore those dear friends suggested rave..and he works 7 days a week..that bloody workaholic !!

I wake so early and yet sleep so late. Having eyebags under my eyes is NOT sexy. Putting on make up helps but its only a temporary measure. I'm loosing my the happy go lucky feeling. Its a torture to look at emails as I have a love and hate relationship with it. I hate the old feelings flooding my brains. Its a bloody torture. Given me a laptop, I would like to pour vodka over it so that it fries.

I should be sleeping and yet I'm here typing this silly little post. I'm scared of having sandwiches everyday as and its becoming such a putoff. No, dont instruct me what to do. I hate you, you bloody idiot !!

Someone jokingly said I should switch partners since its all over !! I just hope I'm going singapore that weekend so I have a valid reason to do so. But then again its a bloody dread to go to singapore for whatever purpose I'm going.

OMG... what do I want in this life !!! Drown myself in everything. I dont have time for myself with all the money i make. I'm all dark and twisty.. I'll go sleep now..and everything will be better tomorrow.