Someone at my office has shown an interest in me after just one harmless lunch. I brush it off as just an admirer but then it became apparent when i came into office one morning to find breakfast waiting for me and a huge stuffed puppy under my office table in a plastic bag. It scare the hell out of me. I told him i got a bf, but of course he told me he know's about it and he wants a chance to prove himself worthy. In the end i just told him, it feels weird that he's doing all this and i cant accept the puppy so i left it under my table. Come friday, the puppy's missing and all internal phone calls has stopped. phew... relieved.

christmas luncheon

My friend promised me a few pictures. But of course, none came my way. Serving at christmas luncheon was somewhat standing for an additional few more hours which by sunday, after standing for 30hours in 3 days, i was numb and sleepy. All i can think of was sleep. It became more apparent when i nearly fell asleep while driving home. sheer will power told me there will be an accident if i fall asleep behind the wheel. dangerous driving all the way home.

Aanyway christmas ended with a party at nite in a friend's house and a couple of drinks and the welcomed sleep :)

taking 2 days off for another job

Decided to accept the job offer to work at RGT, Kelana Jaya. Anyway for those who don't know what is RGT, its a golf specialist store and its quite a renown store among golfers in the Klang Valley.

I knew it was a boring job, I knew that i got to stand for 10 hours per day from 10am till 8pm with a hour break in between anytime. But because it pays better than my measely office job, i decided i needed that extra cash. Each day during work i realise that standing isn't really my forte. My calves ache, my heel hurt from standing and to top it up, my back hurts( I feel like I'm 70) . Its not really nice to sit down while customers are walking about, to rub salt into the wound... those sales assistant standing at the store seems to do it with ease. "Tak da hal" they would say.

My 3 days stint lasted till christmas eve. That means i didnt go anywhere after work on Christmas eve as all i long and crave for each day at work was to crawl back to bed and lie down till I'm bored of sleeping. yes, people... i spend christmas eve sleeping and not partying.

On my last day, One of the supervisors who worked there told me that golfing is an asset that one got to learn to climb the corporate ladder faster. I was taught how to putt in 20 minutes and taught how to hold the driver properly. Was told to learn the art of golfing. Seems pretty interesting actually, would love to learn when i got enough cash.

Asked a few people whether they're interested in learning golfing. Smart asses replied saying "I'm not doing business so I don't think it applies" or "not interested" or "too young for this sport" ... anyway, in the end of the day, its up to me, pooh and S to learn them. But since both of them have played the game before.. Its me who needs to catch up more.

birds eye view - KL

As promised here are the pictures to last saturday's outing. Ambience was perfect, lighting was mellow with jazz to accompany the whole setting. And the view was spectacular.

Christmas deco made it even more beautiful. Didnt get a good view of the pool though in this picture. No woman in bikini thats why

Two idiots posing for camera. One is an overworked bert another a fat cow.

A whole lot of obstacles has been undertaken for two person to be happy. Power point presentation is one of them. Nice view of KL though. Wish you guys lots of luck.

At the end of the day, I am truly glad that I made it to Luna. Its beautiful to share KL's nightline with a few friends and laugh the night away. A piece of advice, try not to wear skirt to Luna as their sitting placement can be abit of a challenge with a mini skirt.

green...

Why does one feel jealous and feeling comes all of a sudden and hits you at the back of the head? At the end of the day when you reminiscense all about that, one would realise that it was stupid.

I've had plenty of encounter with the green eye monster. It somehow automatically turn me into a drama queen within seconds. In all my past relationship, this somehow plague me. But of course, I'm told that I just can't trust the other half. Does trusting the other person have anything to do with being jealous? So much so that, most of my past relationship started off with being jealous, then moved on to paranoid and etc.

I told myself that in this new relationship, I wouldnt let jealousy gnaw at my emotions. I would just brush it off casually and not take things to heart. "Whatever" or maybe "I don't care" seems appropriate. At least in the end of the day, the drama queen mode isnt active.

When i think i have full reign on the green eye monster, somehow it hit me when i least expect. At times i brush it away and not take it to heart. Even his nanny says that he's dated too many girls. Truth be told, he have too many ex-gf and too many crushes. At times, it doesnt bother me because I choose not to be bothered. At times, I feel like stranggling him because he deserve it and for added pain, I want to bite him. He's not proud of his past but he don't regret doing what he did. That to me sounds like a moron talking.

"Saw a few friends, including an old friend which I've totally forgotten. She was standing ther in a kimono, giving out leaflets :D ... as my fren pulled us over there to buaya abit, she looked at me for a few seconds and shout my name :/ "

See, what a buaya.Anyway, since you like Nat so much, you've already got what you need, now's the right time to get what you want. Because

I'M NOT BOTHERED AND I DON'T CARE!!

So what if I'm jealous? o.o

Piss off people... I'm MAD.. so hear me ROARRRRRR

p.s : I'm sure this is just a passing phase :/

:My weekend:

According to someone, turning a date down is not as bad as getting a sympathy date. Ahhh.. now, when you work your grey cells and think of why would one person say that? I guess, that only happens when one is very mad that their not receiving enough attention, trying to set up dates but i've got other obligations and of course the classic, I'm not important enough for you that Im 4th/5th in your list. I guess I'm part to be blamed for all that whinning. My fault that when one tries to make it up, I'm not interested anymore.

Reminds me of my pekingneese Hollie. She chooses the people she wants to get attention from. My mama's high on her priority list. She's the queen you see. Hollie goes to her for affection and hugs and the soothing words like "Hollie smart girl !!"(even when she pee on the floor for me to clean up. BIAS i tell you !!) To the rest of us, we're merely the court jester. Unless she's bored or she wants food.. she comes to us.

Anyway, as christmas is around the corner, i receive my first gift today. Its so very pretty. Something from a good friend of mine after church service yesterday. It came in such a pretty gift box and tied up with ribbons. Its my bodyshop gift pack :) Smells heavenly too.

I've finished my christmas shopping. This year i put in more effort in the wrappings. It looks so lovely with organze trimmed ribbons. I do hope those receiving it will find it useful. The gifts, not the ribbons. As I'm serving for christmas lunch in church on sunday, I'll be passing the gift out before christmas itself. I bought a bottle of wine for the company gift exchange this wednesday. It has a beautiful ribbon tied to its neck.

I got a call from the company that i used to do part time promoting with them. I guess, I'm going to skip my work this coming thursday n friday and work for them as i get a better salary then coming to the office. Plus, each sales i get i draw a commission of RM1 per sales. So i guess the company will function without me for the coming thurs, fri and then up till tue as we have christmas break on monday. That means I'm working on Saturday itself.

Luna was better then how i imagined it to be. There's a pool in the middle and with christmas deco strung around the place, there's more lightbulbs. I dun think its fair when the gents have a KL skyline for peeing while the ladies dont have them. Pictures will be up soon when i get my hands on them. The place closes quite early but in a way, it works fine with me.

According to someone, I can't cook, I can't sing. Ehem.. ehem... whatever lah, I'm still the best..nah, ambik kau.

I seems to be slow in giving fuzzy his gifts. I've owed him his bday gift till today, and i guess his christmas gift will only materialise when its the next occasion to celebrate.

I've finished reading harry porter in all its series. I guess, credit should only be given from the fourth book onwards as its thicker and the plot more complicated. I guess now im suppose to start reading the hitchhikers guide to the galaxy as someone with weird taste in books recommended me to read it. Shall give it a try then.

my connotation

Life lately isnt all like its planned. planning just make things worst. as you feel like it has gone down the drain and into nothingness.

I want to go to Luna as i want to have a bird eye view of KL at nite. bloody hell

We still have half a bottle park at mainroom and i cant give a day when we're going there.

My so called best friend is getting married next month and im no where near the best friend mode anymore.

My shopping plans all screwed up as someone wasnt in the pink of health. Will find another way to do that.

Regrets are ugly. They eat away at your insides, leaving nothing but remorse and what-ifs. But then again, i try not to regret but somehow i cant help it when it creaps up behind you, pounce on you and hits you on the head leaving a temporary mental hiatus.

Male penguins search for a beautiful piece of rock to woo the female species. Building nest that sort of thing. I've collected 3 smooth pebbles so far. Each came as a surprised.

Wants and needs are different. He's seen his share of wants, but he's gotten the one he needs. Come to think of it, I personally think that wants are still something you would personally want to get you hand on at the end of the day. Especially when you already have something you need. Wants come next on the desired list.

Talking about your ex is a bad way of self expression especially when you do it unconsciously.

Why is it that working zaps the life out of people when all you do the whole day is run around the bloody office and try to work things out in your department when you're the only one running that department. Boss is in penang for this whole week, and the technician is at site in Bintulu. I dread having calls from singapore and with my boss breathing down me through the phone... and the fax machine giving me a hard time yesterday, man...i feel like throwing the fax machine away. bloody useless piece of crap.

Dancing in the moonlight.. i still havent got that bit in my life.

I havent been to petaling street in like years after i left my college life back in KL. wouldnt it be nice to walk among the throng of crowd and just watch life ebbs away while sitting at the stalls doing nothing.

Is avoidance somewhat necessary between two people when things doesnt go the way we have planned them?

I still havent gone down to the Mont Kiara's flee market held every thurs evening. i want to go... (foresee that i spend more money there)

According to someone, im not fair enough to pull off that bohemian white billowy skirt. Go freaking find yourself a new girl then.

Why do i feel myself like a second class citizen, even below those aliens in our country. It feels freaking shitty.

I havent even have a sleepover in my gf place. Protective parents does wonders to childhood... my ass. But yet again, i might contradict this when im a parent myself.

NO Carmen, No Darren.............. go figure !

In Memory of Junior

Didnt know you quite well. But of course, you're more concerned about food more then anything else. You would wait at the door each time i come around and sniff at me, but then nevertheless plonk you butt right in front of the door with that look that scream "can i have some more food please?"

you're abit blur when it comes to taking a walk round the neighbourhood as you always mistaken the neighbour's gate as your house's gate. lost half of your left ear to a growth which in the end the doctor decide to operate you and you ended up wearing the lampshade.

youre quite harmless actually, though your looks state otherwise. your big, your brown,you dont bark and according to fuz, because i push you aside with my leg that fateful saturday you died the following morning. talk about irresponsible fuz, he dont even take you out for walks.

Rest in peace junior :(

taking criticism

In this company, everyone minds their own stuff esp when it comes to the doing your work. when you need help, they're slow to extend their help as those who knows will pretend not to know and those who cant really help me will struggle abit with wat they dont know. everyone is such a stingy ass when it comes to knowledge. i guess thats what happen in the real world where they dont want you to be better than them or rather they want you to learn the hard way as how they learn their way through.

And when i got help, the kind fellar was standing near my table instructing me on what to click and bla bla bla, my boss told me to come into his room, close the door and say " all the information we have on ur pc is confidential, all addresses on our customers no one should know. i trust you thats why i give it to you to do. i don't want our competitor to know bla bla bla"... and i guess when he means competitor was because the girl was from another department and we're doing rental and they're the sales department selling the equqipment.

yes, wellcome to the real world... criticism is real and it hurt my ego i suppose. competition is real when it comes to work and comparatively to last time rental department i heard wasnt doing so well under this boss. being the newbie, i picked up so many stuff. at times im amazed on how much i pick up from scratch. people being people are selfish creature. they dont care about you eventhough they know your facing difficulties. but of course not everyone falls into that particular category of being bitchy. some are nice and offer their help eventhough they aren't very sure themselves.

yes, it took me two hours feeling the "energy" inside seething with contempt, anger and resentment. it makes me wanna just quit this job and let it go. rm45 per day i can let go. but then i guess, everywhere is the same. people can be very selfish when it comes to sharing knowledge and i somehow gotta learn not to be overtly helpful :/

making friends

at my previous company where i work last year, it was a company dealing with crane making. therefore there was alot of engineers. namely mechanical and electrical engineers. alot of them worked for that company straight after they got their degree. happy hours everyweek was a norm and of course i was invited to join along but due the fact that most of them stay in subang and kl region, joining them was a chore as i dun have a car on my own.

in this company, the sales engineer is alot older and they deal with customer more. but then, there is alot of technician that deals with the troubleshooting of machinery. alot of them goes out for after sales service and also if rental dept needs someone to trouble shoot while mat is away, we'll send someone to do it for us paying them OT and all sorts. now, those technician has taken a fancy to me.. but as i sit in a totally different department, they somehow find sorts of ways to come over. one of them being, coming over to my department and leafing through the construction magazines on the magazine rack in two or three. the other, asking their coordinator they want to make friends with me.

judging at the way i respond, their coordinator told me its alright. just friends eventhough you got a bf. i smiled and said sure. Theresa jokingly said, no worries they deal with alot of tools and they'll manage very well unscrewing or unhinging things. hahah...

yes, no one approach me yet. lets see what happen when they do. i promise not to be so sacarstic :)

dress code

i was told by the HR lady on the first day of work that there is a dress code in this company. im only allowed to wear skirt for mon till thurs and fri i can wear pants. i guess pants doesnt consists of jeans. hmm, as a temp clerk... i was told to pretty much lay off the job time sheet by this malay dude who reports to me. so, i guess he wont be claiming his OT for this coming 3 months untill the person comes back from maternity leave.

my boss is out again. here i am, again doing nonsence which isnt in my job scope. im waiting for time to pass. no wonder those who came left here abruptly. its far out from civilisation esp public transport but nevertheless, according to the senior tech that reports to me, this is a good company.

working tires one person at the end of the day, somehow a nite owl like me who prefers to sleep later at nite now prefers to sleep early and not mamak at nite cuz that affair last the whole nite thru right up till 1 or 2am. working also incurrs cost. travelling alone with toll and petrol would cost a bomb. as i takes the company shuttle to work, i saved on that. but i guess it takes time plus lunch once a day which cost at least rm5 makes my salary rm5 lesser.

i dont really talk to anyone at office. just to the senior technician which sits in front of me and will alwiz be away from his desk. the left side of my desk is the sales engineer and like my boss, he goes out after 10am. supposedly doin work. and im only in the sales department. only 3 person is in the office currently in this department.

my phone alwiz ring because everyone is looking for my boss. plus, i learn to use the fax machine today. every company's fax machine works differently. basic function is the same though. i havent gotten any call from the customer wanting to hire or lease the air compressor though. price quoting would be a pain in the arse.i also learned to use the electric type writter all by myself. it was pretty neat when i was trying to find out about the function that can erase typing mistakes. after the typing mistake is remove, its pretty non existant without a trace.

ahh...i miss sleeping at home and waking up at 1pm. but then for rm45 daily, im paid to do as the above. wat am i gonna do with this salary i have? i havent thought about it. mayb treat myself to a holiday again this coming year :)

air compressors :)

this pic below is abit blur. its the yard where thy keep the inventories

i know it looks weird. just a box of something that cost 980 thousand depending on its usage. this is a air compressor portable as it has wheels on the bottom.

its oil injection :)

my job scope

my first day of work was uneventful. nothing much as my boss left after lunch and didnt appear till the next day. he brief me about wat my company does as to wat we're selling and leasing. pretty expensive air compressor we have. either in oil injection or non oil injected and either u want it stationery or portable. yes, it looks like a yellow box to me with wheels on it. other than that, im not quite sure wat it does. but i do know that it sells for 980 thousand per equip.

first day i spent some time goin through the system, other than that..i was surfing the internet wasting time.

second day, either they block me goin online or either i shall pat myself on my back n say, i did a pretty good job of bypassing the system. i still manage to go online out of sheer desperation. got a little bit of work today though. at least one of the on site engineers came back and teach me something.

i like my desk, my back faces the wall so no one can see wat i do... my boss isnt always around so i dun really have to report to him. i do alot of paperwork and ask him to sign and this company everyone speaks in english.. i get rides to work and from work in the company hired van though they dun pick me from my house...but im paid in peanuts..

the lady whom i replace will come in later in the day to teach me what shall i do in her position at this office. at least then, the site engineer will have his OT claim.. ahahha...so, u might as well guessed that the site engineer is the one that called her back. she's suposed to be on maternity leave u know..but she hasnt delivered yet.

i studied bio with fuzzy last nite... photosynthesis and transpiration.. i think i pretty much memorise it as much as fuzzy does cuz i made him repeat it again and again. its coming out for his bio essay.